Thoughts...

I booked my flights for the east coast today, well some of them. Either way I'm definitely flying out from Perth to Melbourne on the 23rd. It's a weird feeling; most of the time I've been here I've been wishing that it would just hurry up and be over with...but there is a part of me that wishes I had more time here. Don't get me wrong, I don't necessarily regret coming here. I've had some awesome times and I may not get another chance to do something like this. It's just not been what I thought it would be like...at all. To be begin with, back in Perth, I was completely homesick. I had expected that though. But I had visions of travelling all over Australia, having plenty of time to do whatever I wanted, and working on farms as we went. If you've been reading my previous entries then you'll know it hasn't been like that. It's been more of a "Shit, what am I actually doing here? I'm missing out on so much back in Scotland" kinda deal. I guess I've just settled in here in Albany and now that I've finalised leaving I'm starting to think I'm going to miss this place...well, more like the people I've met here. I'm really looking forward to seeing more of Oz though...I'm actually going to see more in the last 3-4 weeks than I have in the rest of my time here haha. I guess I'm trying to say that all this time I've been willing my time here to go faster but now that I have less than 2 weeks left here in Albany it kinda feels like this trip is nearing it's end. I know it's nowehere near but I've been away for almost 11 weeks out of 16 so 5 weeks doesnt seem like very much. Anyways, I'm just putting down what I've been thinking for the past wee while into this.

And I've still not spoken to Darren since the morning I went to Bunbury...which is weird. I knew we were going to fall out at points in this trip, it was inevitable. Spending pretty much every day with someone for over 100 days...it's pretty obvious there are going to be some "disagreements." I just never thought it would get to the point where we would be going off by ourselves...